not an uncommon problem
they forget about you
never was invited there
putting you through mental wear and tear

you never had the chance
to cross their minds enhance
as a person youre irrelevant
shit shoved up the bathroom vent

to them youre not a person
with traits, mistakes, and your own personality
but rather a novel idea of a bait and switch externality

fuck yall for denying me interaction
you dont have the empathy for the action
of making me believe that im a human just like you are



its increasingly easy
to become so lazy
in regards to leaving
ending up bent over dry heaving

wake up and the sun is drowning
get up check my surroundings
empty cans of beer lay here
next to my sense of pride or fear

I see the pictures in the morning
ceremonies in the place of mourning
I see the picutres in the evening too
holding a bottle of whatever it makes you

fake. Irrelevant asanine fake.
something i learned the hard way
now its easily carved a mental pathway
something i learned the hard way.

I feel caged in the mire
keep my head down as I wade through
Hope to myself that one of these cold winter nights
ill find you.

The woman in the bright red dress
Atoms split, we caress
Hold my hand no regrets
But she went and played me for fetch

Overwraught, I feel dread.
I can feel the means to our end
monosaccharide exposure
she gave me no reason nor closure

Cut me up, or in half
im not a bull just a calf
left in the bin and at bay
fleeting connection fades away

put everything on the table
in an attempt to stay stable
but from this far away, im not able
my fire inside, its not hateful.

im on a whim, im on a lamb
stab my back, she sliced my hands
i gave her a second chance
she went and made a void of distance

keep my mouth shut, hold it in
stir inside the walls of the bin
no energy left to crack a snide smirk
or a grin

fuck

mental health
maintained
this fire can no longer be contained
your reasoning is inane
now hear our sound invade your brain

Did you care when I came back?
I just dont remember
when I gave a speech?
I just dont remember
when I slept on a couch?
I just dont remember

Course not cause im not brought
to that kind of meek attention
Seek not cause its not sought
To that kind of bleak apprehension

Did you when I didnt leave the house?
I just dont remember
came back from across the planet?
I just dont remember
When I took off and ran it?
I just dont remember.

its all these times i just dont remember